A Shallow Joy

Desparado hopes, linking bridges and building slopes
climbing a mountain with raw courage, no ropes
slicing a moment with a chiselled smile
making everyone feel u r u and sunday smile
but dragging shit, and carpet clugs all the while
walloing swallowing ur dreams
shutting out, blocking down , those gut piercing screams
eeeeeeeech!!!! out of the paining heart
slowly mowing, pulling it apart
squeezing , dripping, the pail empties
all hurt! all pain!! all lies!
her smile all sundayish, all coy
left am i with a shallow joy